A Wake-Up Call I Needed to Hear

Recently, I had a realisation that hit me hard.

I’ve always been a dreamer. I’d wake up thinking about my goals, go to bed plotting the perfect plan. I’ve spent years dreaming, planning, visualising. But more than once, I found myself stuck, frustrated that things weren’t moving fast enough.

I wanted to get my own show on TV.

So, I started where I could: making YouTube videos, interviewing amazing personalities. And they did well! But I looked down on YouTube, I wanted to make it to the big leagues. TV. Networks. Recognition.

So I chased. And when I wasn’t chasing, I was planning. Because planning felt safe.

But then it hit me...

I was chasing because I was scared of doing. Scared of showing the world that I wasn’t perfect yet. That I wasn’t great yet. But here’s the truth no one tells you: no one starts great. You become great by doing.

That “cringe” phase… the messy beginnings, the shaky episodes, the low views, it’s uncomfortable, but necessary. And for so long, I was hiding behind the illusion of productivity. But real growth? Real success? It lives in the doing.

You can’t get to the 10th floor without passing through the 1st.

So here I am, deciding to begin again.To start from scratch.To create my own series on YouTube, with zero guarantees. It’s going to be hard. Awkward. Possibly embarrassing. But it’s real. And this time, I’m not running from that.

Lots of love, Ninka